My cat howling like he was hurt downstairs, he was just offended that he could see the bottom of his bowl. Fed him and sat next to him crying as he paid me no mind and chomped away.
I’m so afraid of this. My boy is getting old, and even though he’s healthy, I’m worried at all times. I don’t know how I’ll get through his passing someday. He keeps me here, and I don’t know what I could ever do without him
At the lowest point in my life, I lost my old boy in a horrific way when someone fucking stupid let him out at night, and it’s been 12 years and still not a day goes by where I don’t miss him.
The first six months I was inconsolable about the violence of his passing, and finally I could only comfort myself that his death was brief and he’s not hurting anymore; his pain is over and it’s my job to carry the pain of loving him without holding him or seeing him ever again. Time passed. A lot of time. Then one morning I realized I hadn’t thought about him for like six minutes. And so it went. Just putting longer gaps between the grief stricken moments, and then I was slowly able to be grateful to have had him at all. It was such a precious time of my life that I am grateful to have had.
It won’t help the grief when the time comes for your dear friend, but, when the time has passed enough to pass moments without aching for him, you could still be here for a purpose; you can do it again with another pet who really needs someone like you with your compassion and kindness. If that’s too rough, you could always perpetually help other animals stay alive as long as you can tolerate to stay here.
There are dozens of wild birds that now come to my place for food, (because all of their usual feeding grounds got turned into concrete jungles overnight), so even though they aren’t even in my home and I’ll never pet them, it makes me feel like I’m doing something that’s important at least for them. Every morning I look out of my kitchen window and see them doing their innocent animal errands, and I feel good knowing my help matters to them.
It will always be important to help ease the suffering of the tiny creatures that share this oft-times heartbreaking world; there will always be one who needs you. I hope you can always find a reason to stay. 🖤
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u/Xbox_truth101 1d ago edited 1d ago
My cat howling like he was hurt downstairs, he was just offended that he could see the bottom of his bowl. Fed him and sat next to him crying as he paid me no mind and chomped away.