r/AskReddit • u/Aiden_and_Griswald • 1d ago

What stop you from killing yourself?

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u/IceThese3219 1d ago

Gun jammed. Here i am. 👍🏻

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u/TwoMoreMinutes 1d ago

Jesus Christ what was the feeling, adrenaline relief or holy fucking what?

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u/IceThese3219 1d ago

So, i sat there in my bed, pointed at my chest - (because i like my face) - and loaded the rifle, played some favorite music and breathed for some minutes, looking at pictures (parents, ex girlfriend blabla)

Breathed out, pulled the trigger and it just clicked. I had one in the chamber and the safety was off. I really panicked, breathed, throwing the gun in anger at the wall, it went off, breaking my window.

It definetly could've been the end there. but here it is dude.

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u/sookmahdook 1d ago

this is intense. glad you are still here and hoping you are in a better place.

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u/chamrockblarneystone 16h ago

Dude you like your face. Huge reason to stay alive.

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u/IceThese3219 16h ago

Not like optically, mainly for an identification purpose. but it wouldn't want my family to see me like that u know

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u/chamrockblarneystone 16h ago

Sadly I do know. Pizza, the ocean, pets, sunsets. Some reasons to stay alive besides your face.

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u/IceThese3219 16h ago

I really think it was divine intervention because life's messed up.

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u/chamrockblarneystone 16h ago

So much. But you’ve got to focus on the little pleasures. The pain makes that hard, but allow yourself to do the things that give you pleasure. No matter how small. Watch reruns of your comfort show. Minute by minute day by day.

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u/rivulet24 14h ago

Glad you're still here

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u/maxmotivated 12h ago

would have been more funny if the gun still shot you instead the window.

but on the other hand, we would never heard about this story, so i guess its ok.

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u/IceThese3219 12h ago

If i think about it, i bust out laughing. Thats some final destination type sure

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u/vrenejr 18h ago

If thar wasn't some kind of fucked up divine intervention then I don't know what that is.

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u/IceThese3219 18h ago

I actually turned christian because of that. I prayed and didn't feel answered to i prayed for death really and i just clicked. I life a very open thruthfully humble life now after that.

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u/PatientGovernment170 1d ago

happy you're still here. crazy how little choices make the world of a difference

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u/selfsteamed 2h ago

That is an amazing story, I can visualise the scene in my head. Thanks for sharing

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u/IceThese3219 1d ago

Adrenaline mostly, felt like i could've lifted a car

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u/TwoMoreMinutes 1d ago

The feeling I get just imagining it… imagining every feeling that led up to that very moment then the universe stepping in like NOT TODAY goddamn

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u/ChasingDreams23 1d ago

I so feel this. For me, the rope broke.

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u/hungrypotato19 1d ago

I threw up and didn't have more pills.

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u/IceThese3219 1d ago

I really am afraid of asphyxiation. i could never do that. but happy to see you here

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u/Scrumpilump2000 1d ago

Right on. 🙏🏻

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u/Expert_Imagination33 1d ago

happy you’re here !

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u/romano_cheez 23h ago

God's got a special plan for your life, don't take that for granted. It will be so fun for you to look back at end of your long life and to know exactly why that gun jammed