Describing my experience during a tea part with some friends

[u/bo_bo_bum]

I think that during the time i spent there, that some of the things i witnessed were purely subjective and that some of the conversations i had with the others were ones only i will remember and i remember coming to alot of conclusions.

One moment i looked up and looked around at everyone and they were all staring at me in agreement. i said "wait a moment do you guys realise this?" and they all nodded in like we could all read each others minds and none of us needed to actually speak as we all knew the truth. i felt no sense of self, the feeling of being part of one existence for that moment.

When people would talk and i wouldn't participate, i'd just observe, i would sometimes utter a single word response summarizing the theme of their sentence or i would just make a hmm sound.

I felt euphoric, i felt something like a tube running down the back left of my head was pumping seratonin or something.

I was fully aware of my actions, but i felt free from the values i held controlling them then. I could act freely and do anything, but also thought about the consequence and the circumstances i was in, i would to rationalize and ground myself several times. Saying out loud that "i am ground myself "would help too and i sat back and i drew and it was truly a moment of enlightenment, just drawing and ignoring everyone and the world and creating something abstract without reference, i didn't need any validation and i could do art for my own enjoyment.

[u/Interesting-Lynx-989]

Yeah, it’s common to communicate without talking