r/Psychonaut • u/OkRecommendation7539 • 1d ago
Weird trip
Last night I went out with my girlfriend and we took some psilocybin. Everything was good for the first few hours , we decided to go to a park nearby. We were talking conversations got deep and for some reason I had this weird feeling that something was gonna happened I was little paranoid but still remained in my car and I didn’t want to do anything dumb I just let it ride but the feeling in my body that something wrong was gonna happen and the feeling that she was gonna turn me in to the police for whatever reason kept hunting my head. She kept going in and out of the car because she was hot and then cold and she needed to pee it was like she wouldn’t talk to me and she kept going in and out. I was tripping pretty hard at this point but I tried to remain calm. Soon enough the police shows up and the reason they stopped me it was because the park had a certain curfew but I feel like there was attention drawn from her going in and out because it’s never happened to me in that park before. Long story short police officer asks for my ID , I give it to him (he was pretty nice about everything) and my GF starts asking the police officer to take her home and she gets out the car once again. I don’t know what happened after she got out the car. The officer let me go, I drove home ,on the way home I just felt abandoned because prior to tripping I mentioned that if anything happens to not get anybody involved because the effects will go away and everything will eventually settle is just riding it out. Just comunícate I said …. We’ve know each other for some time already. I just feel very bad like betrayed , I feel like he made herself look like a victim in this whole thing. She sends me a message later that night and says I broke her heart I don’t know what to do. I think mushrooms really show your true self
Thank you for reading.
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u/EphemeralPsilojen 23h ago edited 17h ago
Set and setting are so important, and seems you experienced a discordance that affected your experience, and also influenced your reality as it unfolded. There is also a space of knowing one can arrive at that, if unfamiliar, and can cause paranoia, since you 'feel' things are going to happen but don't understand and strive to explain it with the thought-mind, to whom which the knowing is unavailable. You were likely touching that space, and also emanating the fear/paranoia which was arising from the unfamiliarity, which unsettled her in the moment.
In regards to being in the park, you may have been looking to be in some external 'place' that is only accessible internally. This could indeed be your message to turn inwards.
We are all as humans figuring life out. That's all that this was for you. Don't beat yourself up or overthink- experience, learn, grow and adapt. Move towards the light. It will not send you astray.
Much love.
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u/OkRecommendation7539 18h ago
Thank you for sharing ! I will learn from this experience and keep moving forward. My intentions were never bad. Psychedelics I feel like they’re just a learning experience …
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u/Shiva_Shakti1992 15h ago
Man, I totally remember being exactly where you are brother. Just try to realize that this is an extremely important life lesson: psychedelics bring out the inner aspects of an individual. It may ultimately be a good thing that you and her are breaking up.
When I was 18 I was a young addict with a secret life. I was secretly abusing opiates and having sex with older women while still having the girl of my dreams that I wanted more than anything. Sadly she didn’t exactly feel the same way. We eventually broke up and it destroyed me utterly. You need to talk to someone about how you feel man, and get yourself to a place of peace before you consume these powerful things, I would highly recommend exercise, meditation and having someone you can tell the whole truth too. You’ll be okay brother
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u/OkRecommendation7539 14h ago
Thank you so much brother
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u/Shiva_Shakti1992 14h ago
Of course bro, 18 is a real tough age nowadays you know. You’re thrown straight into the shit and the shit is heavy. Feel free to message me anytime you’d want to talk
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u/Curious_Aspect_9631 1d ago
So you drive a car while high?
F* off. Seriously. You are lucky you didn't cause an accident.
You put another person's life in danger, not only your friend but everyone in the street that night.
Contemplate on that for a while.
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u/OkRecommendation7539 1d ago
Yeah I get it but I wasn’t driving the whole time. That’s why we went to the park
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u/What-mold_toolbag 21h ago
Man it's best to just not ask questions here or give feel details. People suck and they take the moral high road to make you feel like shit. People make mistakes learn from them and I didn't read your full post but I see some counts in the comments.
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u/Curious_Aspect_9631 11h ago
I get it. Sorry I was so harsh, but in my life I have lost so many people in car crashes due to alcohol and drugs... Please please, also as a mum of a teen daughter: never drive while in altered states of consciousness, be it drinking or drugs. Set and setting. Always be safe while doing these things, and also take care of the ones you are also responsible for.
Take care. You got this.
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u/Morphing_Willie 1d ago
You drive to a park on psilocybin and you ask yourself that you don't want to do anything dumb? You can be pretty lucky that it only damaged your relationship, but you are not in jail