r/NoFapChristians 3d ago

Failed another time.... i'm just tired.

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u/[deleted] 3d ago

Guys I need prayer(22m) I'm still ashamed & will always be. I added a lot of girls on Snapchat this year. Sent/ received tons of nudes. Was like going into a job bc of how often I did it, I was addicted. At some point I wasn't even turned on I just wanted the nudes(yea ik it sounds dumb). I also had 2 accounts with tons of girls so it was bad fr. It was nonstop I mean everyday talking to multiple to girls, wouldnt sleep that often bc new girls would text back or send stuff. It was so bad to the point where 2 underage girls sexted me & didn't reveal their age till the end. At first I removed them immediately & deleted everything. But it happened again later on, this time I was okay with it, u get the picture here. I messed up bad I just forgiveness. I stopped everything September 21st. Months later I still think about it.

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u/CaptainRockman 3d ago

Nothing changed for me until I asked God to change my heart.

I realized that I was holding onto a lot of things that were destroying me instead of helping me. Things like regret, resentment, loneliness, bitterness, comparison, anger, grief, feelings of "not being enough", hatred, pride, self-condemnation, fear, self-righteousness and so on, and I had humble myself and ask God to soften my hardened heart, so that I as a person can change.

I also started making an effort to get rid of all kinds of lustful content from my life, videos, pictures, sites, and even my favorite Youtubers that were attractive, even if they seemed harmless, just so that they don't tempt me. I had to stop making it easy for me to relapse.

I also started praying (The Lord's Prayer) every morning, and reading a bible verse everyday. The bible is food for the spirit, and the Lord says we must pray without stop. Meaning pray no matter what you're doing, eating, sitting, washing dishes, at the beach etc. Stay connected to the Father who loves you.

I had to forgive people no matter how much they hurt me, and let go of the toxic people I was attached to, so I can move on with my life, because they were also the reason for my relapses.

I know this is all "easier said than done" when you're going through hardship, but that is why we have the Lord Jesus Christ in the first place, so that we don't try to fight this battle ourselves. It's not us but Him who fights for us. That is why we have to surrender it all to Him. Whatever it is, your fears, your troubles, your future wife, your future, all of it. You may not know where you will find food tomorrow, but as long as He knows, rest in Him.

May God deliver you from this as He has done so for me. Don't get tired of asking the Lord to deliver you, my brother, and also don't get tired of trusting in the Lord as well.