In short, they are basically 2 people in their 30's who have the mental and physical health of 80+ year olds. They've been on the internet for over a decade and have been declining ever since. While one is sitting on her couch and putting on makeup, the other is in his chair drinking booze and eating doordash concoctions. They are both extreme examples of destructive lifestyles which has left them mostly alienated from the outside world.

When she was #2 for beauty influencers or something on TikTok and she was supposed to get some invite, but never ever did?? Bc TikTok realized what a freak show she was—and this was also while it was before congress I think.

What other ways would her problems have presented? Would they have, or would she have remained just mildly emotionally dysfunctional mean girl who went on to have an in check eating disorder, then marry and spend her days shopping?

I feel like the internet for her is a Narcissa's mirror she can't turn away from, even when the reward was just comments or conversation like back when AIM, Livejournal and Myspace were the only social media.

I know an ED is a disorder and she has issues, but I feel like the direction she has gone has been far into the abnormal, because there's an audience of strangers looking back at her, and her own live curated digital reflection looking back at her. Her every moment on live is an effort to gain and sustain the image she wants to have, and it's reinforced just by being, and then there's the actual reinforcement from people. I doubt she cares how bad she looks IRL, as long as she gets what she sees of herself on her phone screen on TT live, or in an insta photo/YT video. She's comfortable in the digital world because of how it alters her image and provides immediate feedback, visually and through viewers. If it were not for the internet, would she have fallen so far down the hole, or would she have been forced to find her own version of social acceptance in the real world with a different appearance /or different actions? We saw her try this with her dancing on a rock on the college campus, but she turned away from that because the digital option is more rewarding and a completely different variety.

I was reading a comment talking about how she freaked out after getting dirt on her sock and thinking about how surely she knows you can wash that kind of thing perfectly well. This led me to the thought that maybe in the past her mother washed an item of clothing of hers and shrunk it, she wore it and got triggered or someone commented on it, perhaps leading to or contributing to her strange recycling of outfits (wearing the same thing all week) and seemingly never washing stuff (the black bra) as well as her comfort in oversized clothing (that she can afford to get tailored/custom sized) and her need to exaggerate this and show it off. Basically, maybe she wears the same stuff and never does laundry and freaks out at dirt on her clothes because she’s terrified that it will shrink and trigger her if she has to wash it. Just a thought, it’s interesting to try and make sense of her behaviour sometimes.

Someone just said trump will ruin the country. And she said she disagrees as the past few years the country hasn't been great. And are people going to get mad at Trump for meeting with the CEO of tiktok. She muted them. And then said oh and is Biden all there..... pot kettle?

Talked about Deb’s health, new years with family and normal stuff like guyzzzz

So it's NYday and I am feeling lazy so I decided to count how many times she repeats words on a live. I found a live on Love Eugenia Cooney and got a piece of paper and started tallying all the times she says Thank you, guys, amazing, pretty, like, really, Jeffree, etc. It is impossible for a human to keep up because her speech is so repetitive and her vocabulary is so small. When Jefree came on she repeated his name and thank you so many times I couldn't keep up. Finally I just couldn't take the squeaky voice anymore and had to turn it off. In the 10 minutes or so that I did watch she said Thank You at least 55 times. Meanwhile she applied 3 layers of pink blush and that took 10 minutes. She also claimed that the pink color in her cheeks before she applied any blush was the powder she had been patting on her nose when it was obviously a filter. Why does anyone watch this?

Happy New Year everyone 💖

This was her from 11 years ago. Enough said. No wonder why she idolizes Eugenia, J* and Trump…

I never saw one of these before but am guessing it’s alot of coinage.